Lost in Distraction

I don't know what to think now. I'm confused, depressed even. Jobless and broken hearted. I'm scared shitless of what might happen today, tomorrow, whatever.

Job hunting has been fruitless. I skipped an interview last friday 'cuz i don't have the guts to face it. I've been making excuses all this time. Maybe I'm just procrastinating. Maybe I'm just lazy. This must stop, and hopefully by the end of this day, I've done my CV　ａｌｒｅａｄｙ.

Sleepless, thinking of her. I don't know why it suddenly resurfaced. Maybe it was there all along and i was just trying to ignore it. I've liked you for a long time already but i don't have the courage to tell you. You're leaving in a week. Time will force me, or maybe not. I don't see anything. I can't read anything that you're doing. I was just surprised that I had the guts to say that I've missed you. What I didn't say was, I've been missing you for a long time now. Even though you're just a few rooms away, it still seems so far....

My nights has been sleepless. Smoking a pack or two each night, thinking what to do with this forsaken life of mine. Hopefully, I'll find the way. It might not be a right way, but a way nonetheless.

Echoes in Silence

I'm back, and worse than ever.

you know the time when you need someone and then you don't realize that you're already falling? This is not that time. I fell a long time ago already...

so please people, bear with me in this shit...