i couldn't sleep today

somebody's been snooping and i have a fair idea of who she is. i don't care. just please keep what's in here here.

yup, worthless, pathetic me. just what everybody wanted.

i'm not myself lately. heck, i'm not myself for a fairly huge amount of time. i don't even know what "myself" means anymore.

i've been watching a couple of movies and hoping that i learn a thing or two. being pathetic is not a solution, in fact, it is another problem. but how do we face it? simple, by showing your pathetic side how "un"pathetic you can get. easier said than done.

how do you forget something -or someone rather- who you don't even want to forget? if everything is a constant reminder of how beautiful things can be. but what can be doesn't usually happen. it is the "what is" that we should all be concerned about. the moment in which, where, or when that we are spending right now. for the present forges the future, and the past is a constant reminder of what should or should not be done. they say, there are somethings we learn the hard way, but it is hard enough? and do we learn everything it teaches us?

humans tend to resist what they do not want to happen. it's natural. but resisting what we are afraid of for the reason that we are scared of being hurt, is it also natural? if there is something in it, there's no harm in trying. and when you try, do the best you can. for the worst regret is the regret you get for not trying hard enough. and i admit, i didn't.

the easiest way isn't always the best way.