i am now officially emo

if self-infliction was the last thing that differentiates me from being emo, then now i am officially one.

maybe being hurt a lot of times can lessen the impact of pain. maybe not. i am just being defensive. the truth is, i don't want to put the phone down but the pain is just too much. hearing about how you feel like a loser because of this, because of that. i don't know what to think. i cannot really tell what i want to tell you. my heart shouts out but i am afraid to lose the connection we've just started over. i don't even know what tomorrow brings. i still don't know how to face you.

haha, now this makes me more like a loser.

more loser entries next time. i'm just clouded by this false happiness and i don't want to let it go.

hmmm... that was three hours? i survived three hours talking to you? and thanks kind roommates for counting the hours. like i want to know. rarr.(sacrasic tone)