inhibitions: set me free

i haven't slept a single wink.

i don't know. i had this talk with joenil that lasted upt o about 2am. well, i realized many thing on that talk. and with those things in mind, i hope i can be a new me. a better me. just in time for the new year.

also, joenil lent me a book last night. "Emotional Vampires." From that book i've learn that i'm one of those paranoid types. Thinking about what might happen even though i haven't happened yet. Trying to save the world one minute at a time. shouldering the burden that's not mine. yeah, i'm a martyr. even though i don't look like one.

And yeah, i've weighed my options already last night. hopefully the newe improved me will emerge by the beginning of the second semester. but now, i'll wait. i'll wait in my shell. little by little, i'll crawl my way out. and hopefully, i've buried the skeletons in my closet by then.

Hopefully, everything will be all right until this new butterfly escapes from the prison of his cocoon.