interlude

hei, get well soon... always take care, i'm regret that i can't be there for you in times like these... maybe next time i'll be there by your side....

even though you don't give me enough attention, i hope you'll still be there waiting.

... because i am.

ang mundo... oblong

this day is supposed to be a perfect day for me. siguro nga kulang sa paghahanda. arg. sa sobrang pissed off ko, hindi ko masulat ang aking rants in english.



organization. is part of everything. if you plan something, you should stick to it and be there. you should see that it will be done. and if worse comes to worse, cancel it at an earlier time. napaka immature naman kasi e. oo ng oo hindi naman pala gagawin. ayaw naman pala gawin. ang oblong.



there. i can't think straight today. mejo naaasar akosa isang tao pero hindi ko masabi. at hindi ko maipaahiwatig. naisip ko pag malaman nya to, mag-iiba ang tingin. pero sabagay, siya naman yung gumawa ng paraan. i thank her for that. but the problem is, wala talagang will. arg. hindi ko talaga alam kung ano iisipin. i'm pissed off. pero hindi ako galit sa kanya.



arg. hopefully i can let all of this drift off into dream world. change myself. tama si rhyan. bakit kelangan siya pa ang gumawa para sa iyo? sana mahanap ko na ang lakas ng loob para gawin lahat ng ito. pero mahirap. maraming kumplikasyon. at hindi parin ako sanay sa kapaligiran dito. dahan dahan muna. huwag mag-madali. bata pa ako. malayo pa ang mararating ko. iniisip ko mas mature ako sa ibang tao pero isip bata pa rin talaga ako. ayun. there goes my ego.



haii... marami pang iba jan. one day, i can do all of this by myself. sana lang hindi na ito kumalat pa. alam mo naman ang tsismis (or alternatively, i must tell her before someone else does). if i want to find a way, i can. nassan na ba ang tunay na gyver na kilala ko? andito pa ba siya?



sana lang hindi ito magworsen. kaya ko naman ito kung walang outside factors e. nakayanan ko nga yung ibang problemang nadaanan ko ng hindi napapansin ng ibang tao e. well, this is life. ang my life sucks. sabi nga ng horoscope ko (c/o jeremy's dictionary) maraming darating at mawawala, isang cycle lang yan na hindi matatapos. kaya dapta i-enjoy ko ang lahat ng meron ako.. dahil alam kong mawawala rin sila. hindi sa pessimistic ako or anything. it's just that, i prepare myself for the worst case scenario. masama ba yun?



ayun. tapos na ako magrant. wala nanamang makakaintindi nito. walang detalye e. pero oke lang. wala namang kwenta ang blog na ito e. may nagbabasa ba nito? hmmm.. mas oke nga kung wala e. at least makakarant ako ng walang iniisip na iba pa. without restrictions kung baga...



i like some people... but some people just can't be there for me. or that's how i think the situation is as i assess it right now. things change. and i hope this time, it will.

UPDATE

haha...

of course, this is not related to my life... :D

i just updated my friends page and included a few sites that amused me.. :D
(so include me in your links tooo!!! )

:D

computer mandarin midterms...

at last. i've finished the exams... with all those bopumufu and stuff like that. haha. i dunno, but i think this is one of those amazing days when you wake up one morning and find everything in their proper places (despite the fact that i slept at 4am this morning) plus more! :D

i hope that this goes on until the end of the day. :D

wahh... i don't even know what to say know. :D

ignorance is bliss...

i hope my badminton racket arrives here soon... :D

and my package with it...

and that we recieve our salary soon also...

so that i can buy a new mobile phone...

i can't wait to go shopping(?) on sunday!

and maybe harry potter too on friday...

hopefully on friday...

please, please, please on friday.. :D

over and out

end of HIATUS

i'm back up. i'm sorry for the new layout... i rushed through things trying to upload a new layout for a comeback. i'll try to edit the image before i post this skin on the net. sorry for the wait. and now, the long awaited results of the midterms are here... haha.. wish me luck :D

HIATUS: still lost

hmmm.. this may be my last post on hiatus. yet.

i'm planning on uploading and designing a new skin for this come back. haha... those busy nights again. i can't believe i'm neglecting my mandarin education for this thing... oh well...


wow, i visited momentum's blog and hell was i feeling nostalgic. yup. i do miss those OPM. i spent the remaining hour of my work listening to the same old song that was embedded on the site's background. arg. nostalgia. BRING ME MY SPONGECOLA CD!!!!!


hmm... i'm missing out on those two things that i would've really wanted. that trip to "leofoo village" -- an amusement park and zoo based in taiwan that entices customers using cheap one-year passes-- and harry potter. lots of thanks to cris (sorry for not linking, i'm not so sure about the continuity of the blog) for convincing me that harry potter is not an important part of my life. and oh. thanks again for all those advices. i really needed them. now, i'm looking forward on my next salary and hopefully by then, i can buy an all new cellphone. now, the only problem is a taiwanese host. will jerry agree on a third parasite? i think not. maybe i'll wait for eunice's resident certificate.


hmmm.. lost. yep. i'm still lost. all those things that became clear to me before i ventured inthis whole new environment fogged up again. arg. i can't help thinking about many things...


nope. i don't think i will write about that. arg. till next time.... time's up.

HIATUS: friendster

nako, first time ko uli magsulat sa tagalog sa blog na ito. nasa likod ko yung koryanong mapamlait. haha... may plano atang ligawan yung ka-opis kong si sophia. haha... ang landi.



bukas, plano naming manood ng pagkamahal mahal na "ha li bo ta". haha, kelangan ko kumbinsihin ang sarili ko na hindi ko kelangan mapanood yun para makatipid sa pera. gusto ko kasing umuwi for the winterbreak e. ayun. saka kelangan ko ring bumili ng bagong selepono. hindi kasi nagsusuporta ng mga intsek na letra ang selepono ko e. haha. e kelangan ko ng selepono rito.. hmm.. bakit kaya? kasi baka mawala ako.. :D



haha... ayun. siguro bukas tatanggalin ko na yung hiatus. tapos naman na yung midterms e. saka manood na kami ng harry potter. ay. wala nga palang available na computer bukas. baka maghintay pa ako hanggang monday para makapagpost uli. hmmm..



hmmmm... last two minutes na lang at tapos na work hour ko ngayong araw na ito. haha. maghahanda pa ako ng gamit. hehe...



at hindi parin nabubuksan yung homepage ng friendster... arg.



over and out.

HIATUS: after the second trial

tama.. second trial.



(bigla akong napa-isip. asteg pala ang hiatus, marami silang mababasa after nung hiatus mode)



the first was last friday on calculus. f*ck! i didn't study and now i'm ranting on how low my grade will become? did i become over-confident? well it was just the first test (first out of two?). at least i got an idea how he gives his exams. i should be more careful later on (arg, i still regret that i didn't study for it).



next was a lot easier. this was just earlier this afternoon. at about 1-1.30. management. it sucks to have a good brain. :D :D :D haha. i think i got a perfect score on that one... hmm.. but didn't i just miss a number? oh well... :D



midterms are becoming a pain in the neck. now, i have less time for relaxing in the common room. tomorrow will be economic's turn. and on wednesday will be.. hmm.. we will become ushers for an international conference. haha.. the school is going to show off their international students and how good they are in serving food to those foreigners... well, very well-educated foreigners....



hmm... wo zai zhao xyun wo.te chen ai....
that's my chinese phrase for the day.. :D

while on HIATUS

yey! ang ganda ng araw ko. pwede na akong mamatay bukas!!! :D (wag naman sana.. :D)


hehe... unit-unting lumilinaw ang makulimlim na gabi. wala akong magagawa kundi maghintay dahil sa katotohanang walang mangyayari sa ganitong pag-iisip. hanggang pagtingin nalang talaga. ni hindi makausap. ni hindi makilala. haii...


sa totoo lang, nakakatuwa. lahat ay naaayon sa tadhana. isa na alng ang mali sa buhay na ito. ayun ay ang kaisipan ko. hehe... 我沒有鑑!


hai nako... tiingala na alng ako at mananaginip kungano ang mangyayari sa susunod na kabanata... :D


hehe.. dapat naka hiatus ako ngayon pero nagsusulat parin ako. hindi nyo naman to makikita e. well, hindi pa sa ngayon. hehe.. pagkatapos ipalabas ang harry potter (at pagkatapos ng midterms namin) hindi na ako naka-hiatus. :D


wala lang. yun lang. ang saya-saya ko! happy birthday to me! :D

manual

什麼?

i woke up early this moring. at about 7am. yeah! i even took a bath and did those daily morning routines. after that, i slept again.

whatt!!!!! i woke up (again) fifteen minutes later. and am i so dead. i'm late for work. VERY late.

i just hope our salary will be given today. i'm yearning for those uber-cute keychains from the oh-so-expensive vending machines! warg!!!! i just promised myself to get one every month (hopefully i won't break that promise).:D

another useless entry. for another useless day. this web log is beginning to fill up with those "ISTOOPEED" entries.

btw, i still haven't decided about my alias yet... :D